To my dearest baby boy, by Jaclyn Sison

It hurts me to see you like this in the hospital. You know exactly what’s going to happen next when you see the nurses or the techs. You know that even though it doesn’t hurt, you still don’t like having your sleep interrupted for a blood pressure. You’ve been poked too many times by people with poor bedside manner and large enough egos to fill the state of Texas. And you’re tired.

Baby boy, mommy is tired, but I’m tired of seeing you in so much pain. I’m tired of seeing you suffer. It makes me feel like a bad mommy because I can’t protect you from any of the things you’re fighting. But I do promise you that no matter what happens, I’m going to be by your side every day. Me and daddy will never leave you alone to fend for yourself. We will be there to hold you and console you and tell you how much we admire and love you.

You are our fighter, Maverick. You are the strongest little guy I know. I love you to the moon and back my love.

Love always,

Mommy

things you can do to make you feel like you have your life together by Jaclyn Sison

Do you ever just roll out of bed and suddenly want to get your life together? God, me too. There are some days where I just want to be as productive as possible. But even on the days where I’m lazy, I try to do these few things to make me feel like I did something.

Make your bed as soon as you get up | it really isn’t that hard to make your bed first thing after getting up. My therapist always said that the bed is used for two things, sleep and sex. If you aren’t doing either of those, then get your ass out of bed. Forcing yourself to get up and make your bed really changes your mindset for the day to be more productive. Don’t believe me? Try it.

Fold and put your laundry away, right away | If there’s one thing I hate doing, it’s doing tiny child laundry. My child’s clothes have so many damn buttons… But when it’s laundry day, then I dedicate myself to the goal of getting it all washed, folded, and put away. Having my laundry lying around whether it’s clean or dirty gives me anxiety. The entire place looks messy when there’s clothes scattered all over. So pick your day for laundry, and don’t wait until it’s the day you run out of underwear or socks.

Vacuum the common areas of your home | I actually do have house slippers that I wear around, so most of the time I can’t feel the fur on my floor. I hate that feeling of it feeling dusty and gritty on the floor. My son is constantly neutropenic, so I run a tight ship when it comes to cleaning every day. Every morning after breakfast, I vacuum the entire house. I do this so my kid has less of a chance to find a fur ball and eat it, but also so he isn’t covered in my dog’s fur. If you’re feeling fancy, get a Bissel Crosswave - vacuum AND mop at the same time!

Declutter your nightstand or vanity area | I really hate clutter, or as my husband calls it, “neat piles”. Clutter around my house makes me feel cluttered inside my head. So every morning, my husband or myself will declutter the night stand. We usually bring our tea and water and Nintendo Switches into the room. It also helps when your night stand/vanity is clear after your bed is made. Your room just got cleaned and you haven’t even left the room yet after waking up!

Put your dishes away once you’re done with them | Leaving dishes in the sink annoys me, especially if it’s just one dish. I’ll use the “soak” excuse once, and after that, it HAS to get cleaned. We use the dishwasher (gasp!) Asians using the dishwasher?! Yes, well, it saves you time and money and uses less water! It’s so easy to rinse your dish off and put it away. This minimizes clutter in the kitchen, which is our most used room in the house. Another “no clutter” rule in the house!

Wash your face and brush your teeth | It honestly surprises me how many people don’t brush their teeth unless they’re leaving the house, and that’s quite… meh, disgusting. I’m not even going to sugar coat it. Brush ya’ damn teeth. And washing your face even with a gentle cleanser and applying a moisturizer (& spf!) will help you feel like you’ve gotten ready for your day.

Take a walk after dinner | I’m not going to lie and say I work out anymore, because I rarely do. I’m so busy taking care of my house and my baby, that the only work out I get is my 1.5 mile walk with my boys after dinner. It’s just a nice way to wind down after a long day of decluttering! You get your body moving, calmed, and ready for bed this way! :D

Why children are more resilient than their parents by Jaclyn Sison

I’d be lying if I said I was doing better than my son right now, especially with all that’s been going on. To catch everyone up, my son has been admitted to the hospital twice now this year with severe neutropenia. (Neutropenia is an abnormally low count of the white blood cell neutrophils, that fight infection). It seems like the longest we’ve gone between ER/Urgent Care visits is 2.5 weeks. This all started in December on our trip back to Washington, and the fun hasn’t stopped yet.

Even though he has been the one receiving the treatment, it seems like I’m the one that’s super stressed about it. Even though I have taken care of sick kids before as a nurse, it’s definitely different when it’s your child. Maverick on the other hand is happy he gets chicken nuggets, doesn’t go to daycare, and gets to spend the day with mommy and daddy. I also think he likes that he gets dessert with literally every meal (okay, my kid LOVES jello and whipped cream apparently).

Kids are so resilient. Whatever is happening to them, it’s just in that moment. They don’t foresee the future yet and the long treatment plan ahead. When a provider says “I’m done”, it really means they’re done… until next time. Seeing my kid’s resiliency makes me want to be more of a fighter myself. Not just for me, but for him. If he can get through it, why can’t I? I mean, I’m not the one with the needles stabbing me, I’m just the one reassuring that it’ll be okay. So Mav, mommy’s going to fight for you since you’re fighting for all of us.

Review: In Good Taste Virtual Wine Tasting through Zoom by Jaclyn Sison

Can we just reminisce on the days of early 2020? When everyone hopped on Netflix to watch Tiger King, everyone was always on Zoom trying to figure virtual life out, and when wine and toilet paper were staples of grocery shopping? What happened to those days that blurred together after being locked up for months on lockdown orders?

Well, I got tired of doing nothing. The creativity DIY energy lost it’s sparkle, just like eating banana bread and drinking the same wine every week. Don’t get me wrong, I love Chateau Ste. Michelle as much as any other Washingtonian… but it was time to try something new! So I used the Googles to find In Good Taste. A wine company that hosts virtual wine tasting events for friends and family. All you have to do is order the kits, pick a date, and voila!

What’s in the kit?

The one we chose to go with was the Wines from Down Under. It is a selection of 8 different wines from New Zealand and Australia. The box comes in beautiful glass jars that can be reused for oils and sauces, it actually contained 2 stoppers to use! Had I opened the package earlier, I would have been able to prepare my tasting with foods recommended in their tasting guide. Luckily, charcuterie boards go very well with wine. You must order 6 kits minimum in order to verify your reservation. They will verify this through the order numbers. I found it was easier to collect everyone’s addresses, and pay with one card. The website allows you to enter multiple addresses making it easy to verify the orders.

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Our Sommelier

Our host was Ashley, from In Good Taste. She did a fantastic job educating us on the history of the wines. She is a certified professional sommelier, and actually has the hometown of El Paso! She was very friendly, and courteous about waiting for everyone to hop on the zoom call. It was very easy to talk to her during the tasting, which made the experience comfortable - we will definitely be booking through Ashley when new wine flights are released.

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How did I like the wines? Was it worth it?

The wine packages run for $65 USD, and are delivered straight to your door with an adult signature required. They recommend ordering the wines at least 2 weeks prior to the event. Your Sommelier will email you beforehand with some tips on how to prepare each wine for the tasting. Out of the 8 wines we tried, I only disliked one because it was too much tobacco flavor for me. My favorites from the flight Orange Belly Chardonay from Tasmania and the Grimson Rosella from Adelaide. Fun fact, I almost moved to Adelaide when I was 18 to attend culinary school there. I definitely think that the wine flight and experience was well worth the money!

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In Good Taste

the one by Jaclyn Sison

I love life.

Or at least I used to.

I mean, I think I did.

When I think back to my childhood, it’s just mixed feelings of,

being smart and successful and helpful,

but all of that backed by feeling worthless and never good enough.

It didn’t matter how many awards I had, or what my grades were,

I’d always be second best, because there was always someone as number one.

And I wasn’t that one.

I am never number one. Hell, I’m never the one.

I’m the stepping stone so people can become their greatest potential,

all while I’m left in the rubble, piecing myself back together,

because I’m just never,

good enough.